progress

i almost had nothing to write about today, but lo and behold when i check my phone, i had a notificaton - im 18 months clean

i used to self harm alot, which is when i originally started back in 2021. ive been relapsing alot until, well, 18 months ago, which is the longest ive been clean. its an achievement im really proud of myself for it. generally i dont feel like im forced to wear long sleeve clothing anymore (which typically equals me suffocating in  my hoodie in summer heat)

i think its different to differentiate sexual self harm and nonsexual self harm for my tracker also. ive done it for sexual reasons and i dont count it (because its different for why i started it) idk its always been a weird subject but i feel happy about it. it wasa nice start to my day n its awesome, like, im 18 months clean. 2 years soon hopefully :'3 im surprised so much happened recently and i never relapsed tbh

sorry for the shorter blog i dont have much to write abt today lololol

with love,

basil arianne flowers